I knew it was coming. Really, I did. I just didn't expect it to come so soon.
I mentioned a while back that I was in charge of our church's Vacation Bible School curriculum this summer. It wasn't all that difficult or time consuming, especially since Ryan took the kids out for an entire afternoon so that I could finish it without interruption.
Because it wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be, I went ahead and volunteered to make copies of it for all the teachers. I even put together a supply list based on the curriculum just to be helpful.
And because I did my job thoroughly and went a little above and beyond, I got the call.
What call is that, you ask?
Well, it was the "Since you did such a great job as curriculum coordinator, I was wondering if you'd be interested in being my co-director for all of Bible School next year" call. (The term "co-director" is also the code word for the following year's head director.)
My internal response? "Heck no."
My actual response? "I am so flattered you'd think of me, but I really don't think I can devote the time to it that it needs." I went on to tell her that Ryan's work is asking him to travel more this year (true) and that he's gearing up to start a master's program at a nearby university (true) and that I'd be a single mom for much of the next couple of years (also true) thanks to the first two reasons.
She was very understanding and sympathetic since her husband also travels quite a bit, but sad. She asked who I thought who would be a good person to ask and I told her that I'd think about that and I'd get back to her (and I will because I already have a couple of names in mind).
I'm feeling guilty about it because I know it's a hard job and it's a lot of work. I also feel guilty because the person who asked me was co-chair this past year and still managed to work full time as a high school science teacher and keep her two children fed, clothed and loved. I honestly don't know how she did it all and I don't want to find out, either.
However, I'm a big believer that you should volunteer with a happy heart. If you do it out of obligation then you won't enjoy it at all and people will be able to sense your resentment and neither of those are good things when it comes to dealing with over 400 children and volunteers.
I always joke with Ryan that I inherited my mother's inability to tell people "no", but I guess I didn't. I suppose I've just learned how to do it politely and with a smile on my face.
Two Weeks Later
4 weeks ago